The GuardianThe Guardian by Mary Calmes

My rating: 1 of 5 stars


Abandoned at 60%. I am far too exhausted to work up the outrage this book deserves, so let's do this the quick and clean way.

Blah blah blah gay romance where the ad executive saves a giant dog from a fight, except the giant dog is actually a hot dude from a fantasy dimension.

Item the first: The first time they hook up, hot dude from fantasy land is startled to discover, mid sex act, that the protagonist is willing. This apparently never having happened to him before.

Item the second: Shortly thereafter, the protagonist meets up with the group of women who were hot fantasy dude's previous sexual partners (for financial remuneration). And these ladies elucidate that, indeed, hot fantasy dude is sexually brutal and violent, that it was rape at least some of the time, and that one of them frequently believed that he would kill her during sex.

. . .

You know how I often say that I don't care what a book's kinks are as long as the author knows it? Like, go ahead and have a watersports kink, whatever, it's not my thing but I won't stop you. But for the love of God, own it. Don't pretend it was an accident. 'Oops, my word processor slipped!' 'I just wrote a story about a dude sexing up someone who is drugged unconscious, but it's not rape and how dare you say I would write a story about rape, because I'm the author and I know the unconscious dude secretly wanted it, so there!'

There is very little more secondhand embarrassing than watching someone shame themselves over the kink they are writing stories about, often within the stories themselves.

So yeah, you know how I often say that?

Well, this book is the counter argument. This book explicitly makes sure we know hot fantasy dude is a violent rapist because that makes him sexier to the protagonist, and that is supposed to make him sexier to the reader. There's nothing coy about this, no inference games. Calmes thought being a violent rapist -- being an uncontrollable brutal animal, nearly a direct quote -- makes this guy hotter, and she owned that.

And it was so fucking gross, I have a bad taste in my mouth over a week later.




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Caliban's War (Expanse, #2)Caliban's War by James S.A. Corey

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


Second verse, same as the first –intrasolar medium-future scifi heavy on the politics with occasional alien goo monster horror set pieces. It even introduced a new character whose arc depends entirely on his pain over the fact that a girl he cares about is missing. That being necessary to replace the nearly identical plotline from the first book that was resolved, you understand. At least take 2 was way less psychosexually creepy.

Basically, it's another summer blockbuster. Splashy, surprisingly good writing, but there's a slickness to it, a photogenic quality to everyone's pain, such that nothing seems more than skin deep. And the putative hero's self-righteous angst wankings are still as interesting as watching mold grow, but hey, that comes with the territory.

I'm being pretty snide over a book that I actually enjoyed. I did enjoy it. But let's not fool ourselves: I read this at the audio version of speedreader rates in careless jolts of attention, and it doesn't really deserve anything more than that from me.

Oh, except for the sections on the kickass lady Martian marine and the even kickasser grandma who is also a UN bureaucrat and how they save the solar system. I paid way more attention to those sections, and if the book had been 100% them, we would be having a completely different conversation right now, let me tell you.




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Finding ZachFinding Zach by Rowan Speedwell

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


M/M. Hurt/comfort of the 'kidnapped for five years of rape and torture in the South American jungle, followed by lots of sexy cuddling' variety. Like you do.

I'm tempted to think the flickers of beauty and interpersonal complexity were accidents. I mean, look, if someone wants to write a book for the sole purpose of hitting emotional buttons connected to the healing powers of love after ludicrous amounts of suffering . . . go for it. These types of stories are often intensely wrong-headed about trauma in ways that make me angry for reasons I won't get into. But I keep reading them because they also do push my buttons. And once in a while you find one like this, with a little richness to it, some thought.

But the wrong amount of thought. You get these quick, casual moments of delicate character work, and then an entire subplot that was so poorly thought out, I honestly have no idea what she even meant to accomplish with it. So frustrating, because I strongly suspect what I'm seeing here is a talent under-exercised, and that just makes me sad. I'd almost rather have read this by a lesser author . . . almost.




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The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe (Chronicles of Narnia, #1)The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe by C.S. Lewis

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


The proper first book. Putting The Magician's Nephew first was just . . . incorrect.

I definitely read this multiple times as a child. Then again, my access to books was extremely limited, so when I could actually get some age appropriate reading (and fantasy!) in Braille or audio, you bet I read it. And keep in mind all my books were borrowed – I would have a selection of maybe 10 for weeks or months on end, so I just read whatever I had in rotation over and over again. I'm remembering all this, because I definitely read LWW, and it was ostensibly fantasy about a magical world, but I didn't love it. And even then I thought that was strange.

Now, I can start to see why. Religious narrative and fantasy literature can converge in a similar place. It's the because problem. The it just is problem. It's Edmund, the Judas of this story, being quite rational if you think about it and asking his siblings how they know who to trust. They've walked through a wardrobe and into a war for political power – how do they know they should trust Aslan and not the Witch? His siblings, of course, and the narrator, and all the weight of this book reply that you just know because you hear Aslan's name and you know. Just . . . because. Between the reason and the knowing is . . . um. Well, it's faith, actually.

I'm trying to get at something about religious narrative and fantasy narrative, about how the times I find fantasy narrative unsatisfying, I think it's because the fantasy is relying on the fantasy magic version of faith in a savior. You just know how to defeat the evil. You just pick up the sword and you can slay the wolf (oi, Lewis, really?). But then again, I think religious faith at its best is probably far more complex than that. I wouldn't know. But I would think so.

And, but then again I think that is too simplistic, because sometimes the sensawunda I can access through fantasy genuinely is a kind of faith. Faith in the world built for me, in the righteousness of its protagonist or the majesty of its magic. A story says to me just because, because this is how the story goes, and I believe it, and I have this complex, textured emotional response that is at its very best, not to put too fine a point on it, transcendant. Which is to say that religious faith and . . . fantasy faith are both intense, extraordinary emotional responses to stories.

And yet, Lewis's massive emo feels about the crucifixion kind of embarrassment squicked me. Like dude, really, put that away. It was kind of like watching someone be brought to tears over their tabletop D&D game with the massively complex rules that he has spent hours explaining to you, but, uh, awkward. You just don't give a shit.

Anyway. I'm not really getting this out. But I guess part of what I'm saying is that Narnia is a religious narrative with the trappings of fantasy literature. And I find the ways they intersect pretty interesting for thinking about fantasy. Particularly since my response to Narnia is so tepid, and I don't think you can lay all of that at the door of atheism.




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A Night in the Lonesome OctoberA Night in the Lonesome October by Roger Zelazny

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


Gotta love Roger Zelazny. I can just see him getting totally baked one day and bolting up out of his thought stew and going, "Fuck all y'all, I'm writing Sherlock Holmes/Frankenstein/Dracula/poe crossover fanfic from the point of view of Jack the Ripper's dog! Suck it!"

And then he did. This is the deceptively adorable diary of a dog, chronicling his efforts and the efforts of his master as opposing forces gather to keep the demons out, or let them in. Silly, punny – there's this bit about an owl, very close-beaked, you know, doesn't say much, keeps his pinions to himself. *facepalms violently*. This is very clearly a book from a different era, but there's an enduring quality to it. Which I guess is the long-winded way of saying that it's a classic.

And how often do I get to read something at 11 and think it's adorable, and then read it at 29 and think it's adorable? Not that often.




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Talker (Talker, #1)Talker by Amy Lane

My rating: 1 of 5 stars


M/M romance. Our "hero" "tries" to tell his best friend that he wants him, but he never actually, uh, uses his words. So he figures hey, the problem here is that the bestie is just refusing to notice him, and the bestie was recently raped and is really "fragile," okay, so the thing to do – he has a plan, you guys – the thing to do is to manipulate events so he and the bestie are in a sexual situation but the bestie doesn't know who he is until after there are orgasms.

This being a romance, this is fed to us as romantic instead of, you know, creepy and awful.



DO. NOT. WANT.




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Santa Olivia (Santa Olivia, #1)Santa Olivia by Jacqueline Carey

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


Totally the best dystopic queer orphan superpowered Latina boxing novel I've ever read.

Some of you guys are going to seriously dig this. (Or, you know, already did. In 2008.) It's about the daughter of a super soldier trapped in a militarized border town, and social injustice, and vengeance. And it's throwing down some interesting stuff. Our heroine tries on and discards assorted narratives – vigilante folk hero, redemptive underdog boxing hero. It's sorta about how when you change the gender of the protagonist, the shape of the story changes too, and it's sorta about what would have to be "wrong" with a woman for her to bend these stories around her (Loup is physiologically incapable of fear, even when it would be really useful).

But only sorta, because a lot of stuff gets thrown down, and most of it never gets picked back up again. I kept waiting for this book to be more than it was. And it was entertaining, don't get me wrong, but there was a promise of greatness here, and I don't think it was fulfilled.




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The Magician's Nephew (Chronicles of Narnia, #6)The Magician's Nephew by C.S. Lewis

My rating: 2 of 5 stars


Yikes. I was feeling like another childhood nostalgia reread adventure, though I should confess up front that I was never more than lukewarm on Narnia even as a wee thing. But I was pretty excited about it until the collection I grabbed put this book first. It was written sixth, but is chronologically the beginning, telling as it does the story of the creation of Narnia.

And look, I never got all bent out of shape about the Christian allegory the way a lot of my peers apparently did. It is what it is, even in this late volume where it frankly swallows much of the story.

But I do get bent out of shape by just how Conservative this book is. Stop laughing. Thematically, this book is about how evil consists centrally in believing that there are rules in the world, but that they do not apply to oneself. Digory's Uncle believes this – he's a genius, therefore he is not bound by morality – and the Witch believes this – she just doesn't give a fuck. And Digory's central act in this book is to be the inadvertent author of great and spreading evil by way of – you guessed it -- ignoring explicit strictures.

So rules are good, and following them is good, everyone got that? Okay, so then we get to the creation (I keep wanting to write 'founding,' but, uh . . . no) of Narnia. A pristine world born from nothing. But born with defaults. Rules, if you will. Software pre-installed. And it is really telling stuff about Lewis and his world. Like 'male creatures are invited by the creator to attend councils of state, female creatures are not.' And 'the natural state for a female creature and a male creature is marriage.' And here's a biggie – 'there is a natural hierarchy in which certain types of creatures are superior to other types by virtue of anointment by the creator, and the superior types must rule.'

It is what it is. He was what he was. And oh man, how much do I wish they hadn't put this book first.




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Unholy Ghosts (Downside Ghosts, #1)Unholy Ghosts by Stacia Kane

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


Urban fantasy about a ghost debunker in an alternate post apocalypse universe where no one believes in God anymore, but everyone believes in the afterlife.

Oh, man, so many bad decisions. That was the best part for me – our narrator works for the successor to the church, but spends this entire book taking orders from her dealer (yes, like that), and then his competitor, and then it gets worse. She's making genuinely awful decisions, is what I'm saying. As opposed to the usual run of urban fantasy bad decisions, which are more like oh woe is me, I have to decide to save the world or save my lover, what will I doooooo?. Yawn. Whereas this chick is more like yeah, so, I've gotta take care of this ghost threat or else my dealer will cut me off and fuck my shit up. Jesus, where's my stash? I plan to keep reading almost entirely to see what life-destroyingly awful thing she ends up doing next. Aside from all the speed and the uppers and the downers, I mean.

Could've done with less boyfriend, honestly, but then again it's not like that was actually romantic, since it was just another set of awful, awful decisions.

…I'm totally not selling this, am I? Look, it's standard urban fantasy but with a way more fucked up narrator, whose fucked uppedness – her assorted addictions, her rotten upbringing – are not at all glorified or sexy or meant to be a lesson. Or fixable. They're just part of who she is. It was surprisingly nice, actually.




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God's War (Bel Dame Apocrypha, #1)God's War by Kameron Hurley

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


Bounty hunter and occasional gene pirate takes a job that puts her squarely in the middle of the centuries-long internecine religious war.

Interesting as hell, but also frustrating and unsatisfying. It would be too obvious to call this gritty, so I'll go the extra mile and explain that I kept asking questions of the world building like okay, seriously, you've been massacring your populations for a hundred years at the front, and yet both societies are still built around sending bodies out to fight? Bodies from where? And then Hurley told me where the new population growth comes from in a nearly casual aside, and I went . . . oh, swallowed hard, and moved on. This is a bloody, awful world, vividly drawn, and pretty close to fascinating.

Unfortunately, the character work was done with a much heavier hand, and I found myself impatient with a lot of it. Also with the gender politics – this is one of those worlds where women are far more likely to survive than men, so you have most of the problems of the patriarchy but in reverse, plus a few extra. That aspect, like much of the work regarding the religious conflict itself, felt like pieces of machinery put carefully together and then not connected up to anything else. I don't know, I wanted more out of it than I got.

Basically, it's a debut, and it interested and annoyed me in shifting proportions. I felt much more cheerful about it when I realized that I don't really want to read the next two books in this trilogy. But I really do want to read Hurley's sixth or seventh book, somewhere around there, because she's got something here and I really want to know what it's going to grow up to be.




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Getting Rid of BradleyGetting Rid of Bradley by Jennifer Crusie

My rating: 2 of 5 stars


School teacher divorces her husband, and promptly gets shot at and dragged into his embezzlement case, except she also lands herself a cop for protection.

Not feeling it. The whole thing felt rushed and phoned in, but more to the point, this is one of those romances where all two people have to do is meet. Everything else just happens. I realize this is, like 80% of the romance genre, but I was just not in the mood for a story about how all you need to do to achieve lifelong romantic happiness is show up. As opposed to, I dunno, work hard at it and compromise and be thoughtful and your best self. Everyone who knows the story of how my girlfriend and I got together is now pointing and laughing, and okay, fair. But I still have a point!




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The Name of the Star (Shades of London, #1)The Name of the Star by Maureen Johnson

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


American teenager goes to British boarding school, gets involved in the hunt for a supernatural Jack the Ripper copycat.

I made some assumptions based on the text, so I was feeling condescendingly pat pat about this book, all, aw, it's your debut, how nice. And then I googled the author, realized this is actually her ninth, and went . . . oh. Oh dear. Whatever, it's not terrible, I've just seen all of this before, and I've definitely seen it all done better.

But the thing I actually wanted to say was that this story takes place in a strange alternate universe that looks exactly like ours in every respect, but in which Harry Potter was never written. Nothing else could explain the pathological lack of references from our narrator as she, you know, attends British boarding school and learns about a magical world. Even on the Doylian level, Johnson feels it necessary to explain to us what school prefects are, as if there's a single American reading this book who hasn't picked that up. It was so glaring and bizarre a choice, and so patently ducking engagement with the still dominant magical British boarding school story, that it overshadowed nearly everything else for me. I dig texts that engage with other texts, so you can see how I didn't respect this choice.




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Sweet ToothSweet Tooth by Ian McEwan

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


About 15% in, I said in tones of astonishment to my girlfriend, "dude, the book your dad got me for Christmas is actually good." Bless his heart, but this is the man who unironically and wholeheartedly believes that Smallville is good television and Twilight is a wonderful series. Not like there's anything in the world wrong with loving things. It's just really surprising the number of otherwise intelligent people who have never realized there's a difference between 'pleasurable' and 'good.'

Not actually a tangent. This is an ostensible spy novel about a beautiful woman working for the British security services in the early 70's who begins an affair with the author/target she's cultivating. She's not terribly bright and she's the sort of reader who enjoys most things and understands almost none of them. The book is about that, largely, reading the narratives around you. Or in her case, failing to.

It's beautifully written, if there was any doubt. McEwan reminds me of Margaret Atwood on the level of sheer making-words-sing talent. Which is not an idol comparison. The last Atwood I read was an intimate first person portrait of a somewhat foolish woman's life and loves and mistakes while playing point-of-view head games, and it struck me as beautiful and kind and cutting and true. Sweet Tooth is an intimate portrait of a somewhat foolish woman's life and loves and mistakes while playing point-of-view head games, and it struck me as unkind and, uh. I'll just come out and say it. Some women's literature studies grad student is going to get a hell of a thesis out of analyzing female sexuality as the subject of the male gaze in this book. Female everything, actually.

Right, glad I tore that bandaid off. I read a bunch of reviews when I was done, and a lot of them were really interested in talking about how McEwan was writing from a female point-of-view, and judging how well he did it. Men writing from the pov of women being a departure from the default male pov, apparently, and also writing from a female pov being like some moderately tricky dance routine. And I just kept gaping because -- you know what, I'm just going to spoiler cut the twist in this book, because spoiler ) Yup. Let that sink in for a minute. Like I said. Great feminist literature thesis unpicking the many, many layers of creepy/weird here, and the occasional bit of interesting.




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Some Remarks: Essays and Other WritingSome Remarks: Essays and Other Writing by Neal Stephenson

My rating: 2 of 5 stars


Neal Stephenson existed to me entirely through his novels before, since he doesn't have any of the modern authorial infrastructure – no twitter, no blog, no Goodreads, etc. And apparently I had come to a number of conclusions about him based entirely on his books, which is one of those things we like to pretend we don't do, but, I mean, come on. I figured this out when I was trudging through the opening salvos of this book and thought, ug, what a fucking asshole, with a complete lack of surprise. So I ran an informal poll of some of my friends who have also read and greatly enjoyed his books (all women, come to think of it) along the not at all respondent-biasing lines of "Neal Stephenson, gut check, asshole or not asshole?" and got 100% "asshole" back without hesitation. Yeah. We all do it. It's just funny when we come to the same conclusion.

Anyway, this was really rocky. I dug the fiction, because even when he's writing about stuff I'm tired of hearing about (monetary systems) he's just so damn snappy and hilarious. And the (excerpts?) from the long piece on the fiendishly mad engineering endeavor of laying transoceanic cables were fascinating.

But the shorter nonfiction pieces. Save me. In the intro he puts an "I own this" stamp on everything by explaining it's a curated collection, it's the stuff he basically still stands by. So okay. He stands by the reductionist and defensive and obnoxious commentary on geek culture. I could write 500 more words on this, but suffice it to say he uses a lot of "we geeks all know" and "we geeks all feel," type of rhetorical gestures, and I? Yeah, I'm a queer disabled geek and I am really, really not in his "we all." And he stands by the way he never met a criticism rooted in the portrayal of people of color (or the lack thereof) in art that he actually understood and didn't have something snide to say about. And he stands by all the rhetorical us versus them cultural game-playing and the lecturing and the general obnoxiousness laid thick enough to make me want to argue with him when I totally agreed with something he was saying.

So basically I will never ever read his nonfiction again, and on the bizarre chance he ever gets a twitter, I'm blocking it instantly. But the fiction and I will still probably get on like gangbusters.




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A Stir of Bones (Red Heart of Memories, # 0.5)A Stir of Bones by Nina Kiriki Hoffman

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


Thirteen-year-old Susan slips out from under the thumb of her abusive father through friends and communing with a haunted house. Slight, strange, more horror than fantasy. By which I mean that the supernatural elements feel as though they are . . . extensions? Reflections? Of-a-piece? . . . nearly inextricable from the story of internal psychological strife – the fear and depression and self-destruction. Rather than being moving elements for their own sake. Quibble with my definition, whatever, I'll just change it again in a few months anyway.

Put it this way -- a central character is the ghost of a boy who suicided many years ago, and they find his skeleton in a closet. It's that kind of book.

Two anti-climactic to really get me. I'm confused about why this, out of all of her catalog, is the only title I can find in audio. I'm not intrigued enough to put myself to the extra brain effort of text-to-speeching a novel of hers. (When you must absorb tens of thousands of words in artificial voices every day in professional settings, the desire to do it for leisure basically vanishes. Which is a shame given only a tiny fraction of a percent of the books in the world are in audio, but part of the problem is I'm usually too tired to care.)




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Agnes and the HitmanAgnes and the Hitman by Jennifer Crusie

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


Cranky food columnist collides with hitman while trying to plan a wedding; sparks and flamingos fly.

Fun, zaney. There's no serious internal relationship conflict here, just a shrieking heap of mob enforcers and difficult relatives and frying pans to the head. And flamingos. This book is one half domestic hilarity and one half cartoonishly violent splatterfest, which was a bit odd, I will admit. But having read only two Crusie books, I already know that she is a no-brakes funny lady who has the skill and restraint to spin a ridiculous, so far over the top it's in orbit story like this, and then bring it when it comes to personal insight so subtly that I almost miss it. This time it was Agnes with her anger management and her court-appointed psychiatrist to prove it. And Agnes and her best friend talking to each other like only best friends can, in the middle of all this nonsense and splatterfest, and calmly saying to each other that it's not that they need to kill a man. They just need to know that if they had to, they could. Because they both know that this is the sort of world where it can absolutely happen that they'd have to.

The Bob Mayer sections are not nearly so good, but whatever. Flamingos, cupcakes, making room for angry women, cool.




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Timing (Timing, #1)Timing by Mary Calmes

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


So to put this book in context, on the morning of Valentine's Day I was huddled in bed when my girlfriend brought me a box. Inside it was a black and gold pendant necklace, a statement piece that will go really well with my charcoals and cranberries and other usual work colors. And it was interestingly textured, which is important for us compulsive fiddlers, and all around sweet and beautiful and romantic without being overbearing, and and and.

And I said, "Thank you. Excuse me, I have to go throw up now."*

All of which is to say, this book could have been terrible, and it probably wouldn't have mattered much. I read it on the train into work, tucking my head down to try and minimize the spinning dizziness. And I read it when I gave up the fight and came back home in the middle of the afternoon and curled up under a fuzzy blanket with the dog and intermittent cats. And I finished it there, with the world still revolving gently around my head.

It could have been terrible. It wasn't, though it also wasn't what I would call "good" either. Enjoyable as fuck though.

Calmes usual protagonist – long-haired, extroverted, nearly universally beloved for his beauty and general awesomeness – goes to Texas for his best friend's wedding, and discovers that what he thought was an ongoing feud with the best friend's brother is something else entirely. It's a "have loved you always" story with bonus cowboy and calmes usual run of "only you can manhandle me right, I'm saying no but I don't mean it" thing. And basically it was the one good thing about an entire day. So that's pretty cool.

*Not pregnant.




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The Long EarthThe Long Earth by Terry Pratchett

My rating: 2 of 5 stars


Exploration out into the wild, uncharted transdimensional earths, where something is stirring.

I wish I could blame Baxter for this, since I came into this already thinking he's a hack. But Pratchett's name is up there too, and even though I'd bet you Baxter was in the driver's seat from about the 20% mark on, when you put your name on the cover of a book, it's yours and you gotta own it.

And this is a pretty bad book to have to own. Oddly paced, anti-climactic, sociologically far-fetched. This particular iteration of multidimensional earths is such a fertile concept, though, that I would have cut it a lot of slack if it hadn't gone for a spectacular ten-seconds-to-buzzer three point shot at ablism on nearly the last page. Like, my jaw actually dropped.

The context – two characters are discussing an unusual community many dimensions away from earth. It is held up as idyllic, the sort of magical place where people who need to seem to collect. And in the context of theorizing that it represents the next stage in sociological evolution, a better kind of world, it is noted with significance that you know who never seems to end up in that community? Violent criminals, and people with disabilities.

Yep. Those dirty awful broken disabled people, gotta leave those behind right next to your rapists in order to make a better world.

Baxter I would expect this from. But Terry Pratchett, what the actual fuck?




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The Lost ConspiracyThe Lost Conspiracy by Frances Hardinge

My rating: 4 of 5 stars


Straight up, I'm not going to do this justice. It's so good in ways I'm still trying to fully articulate a week later.

It's young adult fantasy about post-colonialism. Also sisters, and secrets, and revenge, and people who can fling their senses hundreds of miles away, and ashes, and volcanic love triangles (Me: It has volcanic love triangles! My girlfriend: . . . Their love is so hot? Me: No, I mean there's three volcanoes. In a love triangle.)

It's a book that spends hundreds of pages teetering, teetering on the brink of ethnic cleansing, and it made me laugh. It is tight and accomplished and wrenching and wonderful and strange and smart as hell. And okay, one reason I'm not telling you about the actual story is I honestly don't know where to start.

So many of you guys are going to go nuts over this, and I can't wait.




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Bear, Otter, and the KidBear, Otter, and the Kid by T.J. Klune

My rating: 1 of 5 stars


M/M romance. Boy raises his kid brother, hooks up with best friend's older brother, that's about it. Oh, except for one little thing.

You know how some authors can write about closeted people and all their internalized homophobia, and it's interesting and complicated? And then you know how some authors write about closeted people and all their internalized homophobia, and it's just poisonous and awful and incredibly unpleasant to read?

. . . Yeah.

Spending a couple hundred pages in this guy's head while he insisted he wasn't "…like that" made me want to scrub my entire life out, and then go have a lot of self-affirming queer sex as loudly as possible.

Of course the problem isn't really the narrator, or even the writing. The problem is that the book is carrying so much internalized homophobia of its own, it's falling down under it. Like, okay. On two separate occasions in this book different people who have been busily explaining to each other that it's okay for someone to be gay have a serious, not even kidding conversation about what you say to a nine-year-old who asks if a guy is gay. Because, like, do you tell him the truth? But – wait for it – the eventual consensus is that it was okay to tell him the truth because he's pretty mature and he can handle things that send most adults running away screaming.

No. Seriously.

I assume I don't have to unpack the multiple levels of fucked up there, because if I do, I'm gonna need another couple thousand words. Suffice it to say, this whole book thought it was telling a heartwarming story of family and growing self-acceptance, but what it was really doing was perpetuating a lot of notions of queerness as othering and abnormal and, you know, like that.




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