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May. 30th, 2016 02:43 pm
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I’m dithering. I’ve got twenty days to finish this WIP Big Bang story, and I can’t seem to write at all. I know that eating certain types of junk food will jumpstart my brain and let me write, but it’s terribly bad for me. It would just be so easy to have Scott pick up a bag of Cheetos and/or some cookies and/or some jellybeans. He’ll do it if I ask, but he won’t make the decision for me, and I really don’t want to make the decision.

It’s very easy to say that this is just once, but I’d really like to find a better way to work than playing stupid tricks with my blood sugar. Maybe if I can get a solid night of sleep tonight? Eating junk is a tactic I’ve employed successfully pretty often in the past when I was having trouble getting my brain to focus enough to write. I remember needing to chew sugary gum when I spent hours at the computer labs in college. Food wasn’t allowed, but gum was, and I went through a lot of it. At any rate, it goes that far back.

On the plus side, I had a little bit of fruit yesterday (about three slices of cooked peach), and I’m doing okay. I’ll try some more fruit later today, probably applesauce since that’s what we’ve got.

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May. 30th, 2016 01:05 pm
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We spent several hours with Scott’s family yesterday to celebrate the four May birthdays. I was exhausted, so I wasn’t quite all there. We bought lunch at Wendy’s before heading up there, and that helped for a couple of hours, but the problem was insufficient sleep rather than insufficient food, and food only helps so much in the face of poor sleep. Mainly, I kept myself awake by reading DW and LJ on my cell phone.

I’m more awake today but still kind of dragging. I’m hoping I can get myself to fully wake up so that I can write. I’ve been wanting to write for weeks now and simply haven’t been able to.

I placed orders for Scott’s Father’s Day presents on Saturday. I’m getting one thing from Amazon, a game that Cordelia said was good for her to give him, and four books from Bookbound. I hung up from talking to Bookbound about ten seconds before Scott got back from grocery shopping, so I cut it kind of close. They couldn’t get my first choices of books, however. Well, they might have been able to, but their distributor didn’t have copies in stock, and there’s no way to know how long the distributor would take to get copies.

Scott and I did some Ingress stuff after we got back from his parents’ place yesterday (I also captured a few portals in Fenton as we drove by them). I managed to reach seventh level toward the end of our time out. It’s a very, very long way to eighth level, so we’re going to focus on getting Scott to ninth level first because he’s closer.

We need to figure out a better way to deal with the science center portals because four of them are in places where there are going to be vast numbers of mosquitoes very, very soon (there’s a largish pond in the woods). The best time for us to go over there tends to be after dinner, around 7:30 or even 8:00, and that’s prime mosquito time. It’s generally too hot earlier in the day for me to get there and then back home again (I can climb one steep hill at this point, but I don’t think I can manage two within that short a time, and there’s really nowhere I can sit and recover. There are benches, but they’re all in full sun). I just don’t think that I’m willing to spray myself with insect repellent for ten minutes worth of walking in the woods.

I need to email Scott’s sister to ask if we can exchange the shirt she gave me. It’s very pretty, and it more or less fits, but it’s a scoop neck and reveals about an inch of my bra and both straps. This time last year, I pretty much never wore bras, so it wouldn’t have been an issue, but I’m going to be wearing this particular style of bra for at least another six months and possibly longer than that. I pretty much can’t wear a scoop neck shirt with these bras. Part of the problem may be that this is a 2X which means it fits in the hips but is large at the top.

I also got an Archie Fisher CD, a nightgown, and a carved wooden flower. Cordelia got five or six books and a Detroit Tiger’s t-shirt. We went in with Scott’s sister’s family to give Scott’s parents a gift card for their upcoming cruise.

As it turns out, Scott’s parents coming to Cordelia’s orchestra concert on Thursday is complicated by a scheduling conflict. One or the other of her cousins has a concert or some such at the exact same time. Right now, Scott’s parents are planning to have one of them go to that and one of them continue down our way to attend Cordelia’s concert. My parents and I discussed them coming, but it’s a two to two and a half hour drive each way from Lawton, and they’d have to either drive back after dark or get a hotel room. It doesn’t seem worthwhile for a twenty minute concert.

I’ve been listening to some audiobooks the last couple of days. I’m not sure I’m entirely processing what I hear, however, so I’m not sure if I should keep going. I’ve got four more audiobooks on my laptop that I’d like to finish and delete, however. I finished Smek for President! last night, and I’m listening to the Welcome to Night Vale novel right now. I have two Rick Riordan books and a Wodehouse book yet to listen to. I also have a couple of dozen books I want to read, not all of them library books, and an equal number of DVDs to watch. I could fill my time completely for the next few weeks without acquiring anything new.

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May. 29th, 2016 02:53 pm
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I'm not going to say much right now. I'm on my phone and won't be home for a few hours yet. I just think I'll crash as soon as possible, so this is an I'm not dead placeholder.

Inbox/Outbox : End of May edition

May. 29th, 2016 08:52 am
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My week was filled with training (2 days), conference (1 day) and work (1 day).

Lean training is finally done and done. I have a full week of work coming at the tech services. Can't wait. I miss being in my office. I wanted to go to the Museum day today in Montreal but my body would not be functional tomorrow.  So today, is do nothing day. No cleaning, no laundry (that's done), no gardening (the dandelions are going to be left alone). So reading, playing video games, knitting. Not very different from other week-ends.

So reading this week was so-so...

Inbox (Books acquired)

Two ebook titles : 

Susan Kaye Quinn's Third Daughter. Bollywood meets Steampunk. It was on sale and got a rec at SB.

Jacqueline Winspear. The Mapping of Love and Death. Maisie Dobbs. Was on sale. I kinda collect them when they are so read when the whimsy takes me.

D Bombshells #44 and 45.

Outbox (Books finished)

DC Bombshells #44 and 45. The action is in Berlin 1941 where our heroines all converge. We say hello again to Selina and hello to Renee (aka Gotham Central Renee) an old flame of Batwoman. We get a big Spanish War AU flashback.. Collisions are bound to happen with Harley Quinn in town.

Always Mine. Ruth Cardello. That was a catastrophe for me. I hated the hero from page one. It didn't get better or so little better. Emily, the heroine, is kinda letting herself be run over by this, well, alpha hero would be too mild to describe this walking aggression on two legs. I liked the art parts of the story. There are really good plot points in there but the male lead made the whole story leave a very bad taste. I finished it because I am a perfectionist when I should have just stopped reading.

In the Queue (Books I'm reading now)

Jed Perl's New Art City : Manhattan at Mid-Century. Which is still a heaven for my tired mind. Almost at the half way point if you don't count the more than 100 pages of notes.

The Game Plan by Kristen Callihan. Contemporary sport romance. Football not hockey. I'll have to find a hockey one because of the NHL final beginning tomorrow. Sharks against Pens.

Easy like Sunday mornings

May. 29th, 2016 12:59 am
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This song kept playing at the bar last night and it makes me sleepy! Possibly because of its earworm strength - sorry about that btw.

I slept off and on most of the day, which means I'm awake at bedtime, which means getting up for church tomorrow will huuuuurt. I promise I'm going soon.

I've spent the evening doing a "one like/one ship" meme on Twitter and re-reading some of my fic as I go. It's nice to revisit some things! I decided a while back that I'm taking the year off of trying to write (you never know) and focusing on cross-stitch instead. Less fandom gratification, but my recipients are sure happy! And I was getting so stressed every time I tried to write, whereas the act of cross stitching calms me.

My youngest brother is following in my anxious and depressed footsteps...he's getting help, but he posted in his blog tonight about how hard it is. I know exactly what he means, and it's so awful that he has to live with this. He's 25 and deserves better than some of the things I've gone through. Hang in there, bro.

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May. 28th, 2016 10:02 am
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I think we’re going to have to do our library trip today. Scott’s parents want us up there as close to noon tomorrow as we can manage, and that leaves no time for a trip to the library since that doesn’t open until noon. This means that I really, really want to try to watch some of my library DVDs so that I can return them. Everything except Deadpool can be renewed (or could be the last I checked), but I feel like I’m stacking up things that I should get to and never will. I may give up on the Miss Marple set because the second movie in the series has me seriously bogged down in the watch two minutes and pause for twelve hours sort of way because I’m embarrassed for the main character (not Miss Marple, someone else) and just can’t deal. Sadly, it was this movie that I got the set to watch, so I’m disappointed.

I’m a little annoyed with the Ingress program right now. There’s some sort of glitch in how it counts things at the moment. There’s a portal that I’ve owned for two weeks now (I keep checking back, and I still own it, so it’s not that someone took it from me and I didn’t notice), but Ingress stopped counting the days I’ve owned it at twelve days even though it’s definitely been fourteen. I was really hoping that I’d get to twenty days and the next level badge for holding a portal. The portal in question is off the beaten path and not near any other portal or busy street, so it seemed possible. The closest I’ve gotten before was eighteen days, and that was a fluke because that portal was on a busy street.

Yesterday’s migraine started to come back around 10:00 last night, so I took an Amerge and headed for bed. I was up and down more than I usually am, but I feel fairly well rested, so there’s that.

I’ve got a moderate to do list for today. I think I’m going to try to get Scott out to the library before noon. I’ve got a writing thing online at noon that I would very much like to be here for as I pretty desperately need to write. Also, we still haven’t gone for bubble tea for my birthday, and that’s cheaper between 11:00 and 1:00.

All of Cordelia’s unexcused absences have been changed to MED, meaning medical and excused. I don’t know that the ones that were for making up standardized tests ought to be labeled that way, but I suppose they don’t have a specific code for that. Well, I really don’t think those ought to count as absences at all since she was at school and accounted for, but… I don’t really have the resources to try to fight that battle.

I’m trying to charge my phone, and it’s charging really, really slowly. In an hour and a half, it’s gone from 22% to 46%, and I’d have expected it to be more than twice that far along. As far as I can tell, there isn’t anything energy intensive active, so I don’t know.

I’m not sure when Scott and I are going to finish Deadpool. We don’t want to watch it while Cordelia’s in the room, and it’s due Tuesday. Cordelia’s going to be home at all the times we might watch it. She might stay in her room; she might not. I suppose it won’t hurt if she sees a little bit of it. I’m pretty sure that it won’t take much for her to decide that she doesn’t want to watch it with us.

Hm. I kind of want to go back to bed now. I think I’d better get moving on my to do list before I fall asleep again.

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May. 27th, 2016 03:49 pm
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On the plus side, my body has finally settled down in terms of the migraine. On the minus side, I’ve gotten nothing done beyond posting and reading here and emptying the dishwasher. Well, I fed myself, too— Hamburger for breakfast and collard greens with salt and mustard for lunch. I’ve been eating lunch very, very slowly over the last two hours or so, and I still haven’t finished. I suspect I won’t. I think that drinking a lot of water is what finally killed the nausea.

I got myself together to email my doctor about the food/fatigue/brain fog thing. I didn’t explicitly ask about seeing an endocrinologist, though. I couldn’t quite get myself to. I poked around online a bit. I found not a single website, in pages of results, that talks about fatigue/brain fog that is resolved by eating. Almost every single thing talked about having issues after eating particular foods which is not my issue in the slightest. The closest I got to my issue was stuff talking about eating disorders causing brain fog and fatigue in teenage girls.

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May. 27th, 2016 01:25 pm
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Yesterday was quite a good day. Scott and I dropped a box and bag of books at Cordelia’s school and two bags of books at the downtown library. We mailed three packages (I managed to misplace the receipt for that, so I haven’t emailed tracking numbers to the recipients yet. I will). We bought more bus tokens for Cordelia. Then we parked in the library structure and walked to State St to go to Totoro. It was unpleasantly warm, but I really needed the walk.

I had a salmon teriyaki bento. Scott had a chicken teriyaki bowl with vegetables and rice. My sister (the one who just had surgery) called right after we sat down. She and I arranged for me to call her back when we got home.

My sister seems to be recovering really well from her surgery. She sounded happy and energetic. From what she said, the main problem has been the gas left in her abdominal cavity. Oh, and the hospital transitioned her from I.V. painkillers to ibuprofen at OTC concentrations even though the doctor had given her a prescription for percocet. She couldn’t get pain relief until she got home which is pretty stupid.

Scott and I watched part of Deadpool. We wanted to evaluate whether or not Cordelia would be interested in watching it with us. My verdict is that she might want to watch it but would absolutely be mortified to watch it with us. I’ll probably talk to her about that. I don’t think the level of violence is more traumatic than, say, The Hunger Games, and I’m a lot more concerned about that than about sex/innuendo and swearing.

I lay down to nap, and then my mother called. We talked for most of the time that I had for napping. She thinks I need to see an endocrinologist. I was surprised to hear from her. This is only the second or third time in my life that she’s called me on my birthday.

We ended up going to Bob Evans for dinner because I wanted pancakes. I also got a hamburger, carry out, that I ate for breakfast this morning. I felt okay doing that because Bob Evans costs about half as much as the places we generally go for birthdays and other special occasions.

Scott gave me Langston Hughes’ Collected Poems, the Rurouni Kenshin New Kyoto Arc DVD, and the Weiss Kreuz DVD thinpack (some of my old DVDs don’t play reliably any longer, and this was under $20, so I thought it was worth doing given that I’m not going to stop writing in the fandom). He told me that he’s still expecting one more item, and two packages arrived today, one addressed to me and one to him. I don’t remember any pending orders, except some shirts from Blair that only shipped today, so I’m not opening the package addressed to me until Scott gets home.

I discovered last night that Cordelia’s English teacher had marked four of her five PT absences as unexcused. She told me that it’s because I didn’t call the office about them and that I’d better do that now. I’m fairly pissed off about that because I walked into the office every single time and told them that Cordelia had physical therapy. I signed her out each time and then back in after the appointments. The office, when I called them, confirmed that they knew she was going to PT and that those absences should be labeled as medical and thus excused. The lady I talked to fixed those in the computer records immediately. I just shouldn’t have had to do that.

There are also, from the same teacher, some unexcused absences when Cordelia was doing mandatory standardized tests that she had missed due to PT. The teacher claims that she is utterly helpless to address that problem and that the absences will remain unexcused. Every other teacher in the school has correctly marked all of those absences, both PT and testing related.

I woke with a migraine this morning that hasn’t quite dissipated. At this point, it’s more nausea than headache, but I really don’t feel well at all. The only reason I haven’t gone back to bed is that I’m not convinced it would help. If I’m going to feel rotten, I might as well do it while watching TV or listening to music. Plus, there’s no way to charge my cell phone in the bedroom, and I would like it to be at at least 50% charge when I take it in there with me.

I am thinking that my mother is right that I need to see an endocrinologist. It will be a PITA because of where that clinic is located and because I suspect my primary care doctor won’t want to refer me. She thinks my thyroid issues are simple. I’m just wondering if there are other issues we should be digging at. I have pretty constant fatigue issues. If I don’t eat regularly and sufficiently, I stop being able to think even enough to watch TV. My diet skews to the foods that experience, going back to high school in the early 1980s, tells me will help the most.

The first time I ever tried to diet (under a nutritionist's supervision), I failed an exam in a college physics class because my brain wouldn't function. I had the option to retest because it was an independentish course where one could take tests at any time and retest as often as one needed to. I went and bought a bottle of pop and drank it. I passed the retest less than an hour after failing the first test. The nutritionist didn’t believe a word I said about it.

I tried Provigil at one point (my psychiatrist considers the fatigue a big deal. No other doctor has ever paid any attention to the matter), but I couldn’t tolerate the smallest dose made— 100 mg— and half tablets weren’t helpful at all (my psychiatrist wanted to get me to 3/4 of a tablet, but the tablets were oblong and not scored for cutting. They also tended to crumble when cut. Quartering was not a viable option). There was a period, a few years back, when I was taking Provigil and drinking coffee right on getting up and still ending up back in bed for a two to four hour nap about an hour later (right after getting Cordelia to school) at least four days a week. I’ve got a sneaking suspicion that the creamer I add to my coffee each morning is more effective at waking me up than the caffeine. I suppose I could test that by skipping the coffee and just drinking the creamer one day and just black coffee another day, but the creamer is kind of unappealing on its own, and black coffee makes me feel sick.


May. 26th, 2016 08:45 pm
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Closing the File on Agent Carter - a lovely post about the Agent Carter series. I especially liked the part about season 2's theme.

Help I'm Alive - Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. fanvid, Melinda May/Bobbi Morse. If you enjoy watching women kicking ass and being intense at each other you'll like this.

Smol-squad - Harry Potter fanart, the trio. I like its vibrancy and sense of movement.

Adrianne Palicki, LGBT Bounty Hunters Highlight Black Mask's Comic Slate - via goodbyebird, Comics featuring a world where only black people have superpowers, a friendship between trans and queer women, the return of comics legend J.M. DeMatteis and the comics debut of actress Adrianne Palicki highlight the third wave of titles from Black Mask Studios. Those comics sound awesome. The ones I most want to read are Black and Kim & Kim.

something useful - original fanart, femslash, NSFW. Well done and hot.

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May. 26th, 2016 09:40 am
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I’ve got to figure out a better way to do this whole sleeping thing. Cordelia wants me getting up with her because she’s afraid of oversleeping. It’s a real risk because she’s very tired most mornings and tends to close her eyes 'just for a minute.' We all know how that one ends.

The difficulty is that Cordelia gets up at 6:30. Scott gets up at 5:00 with a second alarm at 6:00. No matter what I do, I can’t get Scott to bed before 11:30. Every night, I end up getting up some time between midnight and 1:00 to use the bathroom. This means I really don’t get enough sleep. Last night, because Scott knew he had an extra hour and a half to sleep, he stayed up later than usual. I spent a lot of time dreaming that I’d slept through my alarm or forgotten to set it or something.

I’m trying to figure out what to do with today. Scott wants me to come up with things I want to do. I really don’t have ideas except for a handful of errands that shouldn’t take too long. Well, and some more sleep would be nice, but Thursday is a rotten time for that. The morning is the best time to run the errands in terms of me being comfortable, temperature wise, but I can’t nap in the afternoon because that’s when the cleaning lady comes.

I also have to pick a place for dinner which involves deciding how adventurous my digestive system is up to me being. If I’m being conservative then I ought to go for something like pancakes or a very meat and potatoes sort of meal. If I’m being adventurous, there’s Blue Nile or Totoro or any number of Chinese restaurants or maybe Palm Palace or Red Lobster. I don’t think that Cardamom (local Indian place) is a viable option for me for dinner even if I’m being adventurous because the level of spice varies wildly and I can’t eat anything particularly spicy after about 2:00.

Scott and I signed the contract last night for getting more insulation put in. I’m not particularly keen on the process, the jumping through hoops part, and I expect that the part where they pull off part of our aluminum siding will be very noisy. The guy said everything would take about six weeks, but I wasn’t clear if that was six weeks including scheduling or six weeks once they actually start putting stuff in. I can’t imagine how it would take six weeks for putting in the insulation. Our house is not particularly large or complicated.


May. 25th, 2016 09:48 pm
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On the plus side, I am now up to 28k between parts 1 and 2 of this fic, and I have more to type up for part 3, so when all's said and done, I probably have 35k or so of shitty first draft, plus the rest that I'll have to write.

On the minus side, I just went ahead and cancelled my subscriptions on Comixology. They were all Marvel, and while I'm sad I won't be reading Black Panther again for a while, I can't justify spending money on Marvel. And I wrote an email to Comixology about it. I suspect it won't matter and they won't care, but I'd like them to know why I'm voting with my feet.  

packing problem

May. 25th, 2016 05:18 pm
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Packing for Wiscon. One carry-on, one laptop bag, one CPAP. No checked bag. Can fit a paperback in the CPAP bag.

For signing, I could take:

All the Birds in the Sky, by Charlie Jane Anders
The Chaos, by Nalo Hopkinson
The New Moon's Arms, by Nalo Hopkinson
Liar, by Justine Larbalestier
Magic or Madness, by Justine Larbalestier

trade paperbacks:
A Stranger in Olondria, by Sofia Samatar
Midnight Robber, by Nalo Hopkinson
The Salt Roads, by Nalo Hopkinson
Brown Girl in the Ring, by Nalo Hopkinson
Skin Folk, by Nalo Hopkinson
Sister Mine, by Nalo Hopkinson
Elysium, by Jennifer Marie

Probably not polite to ask an author to sign more than two books.

What to bring for the book swap? Here, the problem is that most of my books are still at my husband's house, and that's where most of the books that I am ready to part with would be. I've got a duplicate copy of Karen Joy Fowler's Sister Noon -- perfect. I've got White Horse, by Alex Adams, which I thought was terrible but maybe someone else won't. If I ever want to read Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World again I know that I will always be able to find a copy. That'll do.

Free to a good home

May. 25th, 2016 02:50 pm
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Anyone interested in a set of the Baum Oz books? I’m pretty sure I’ve got all of them. They’re mass market paperbacks. Most of them are the Del Rey edition, but the copy of The Land of Oz isn’t. It’s got a green cover and so doesn’t match the rest. Taken.

I’ve also got a handful of Great Brain books. I don’t think I can donate them to the school library because they’ve been weeding those out of the collection for the last four or five years (that’s how I ended up with so many duplicates. I forgot what I already had).

Also, anybody local want a paraffin bath? I haven’t touched it since before Cordelia was born, so I can’t be certain that it still works, but it worked then, and I only used it about three times. It’s the right size for a foot or a hand up to the wrist. I’m pretty sure we have some clean paraffin to go with it, but until I open the bin where it’s stored, I can’t be certain, and that bin is shoved to the farthest point under the stairs. If someone’s actually interested, I’ll brave the cobwebs to pull it out.

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May. 25th, 2016 02:17 pm
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It’s very warm in here. The air conditioner is actually running which means it must be at least 80F. I’m very tempted to move into the basement even though it would mean either sitting on the floor or doing a lot of work to set up a place to sit. It would also mean giving up on watching DVDs for today. Most of them are due Sunday, and I’d prefer to return them rather than renew them. I’ve got one new library DVD that I’ll get out on Sunday, and I was thinking of trying some documentaries to see if I can find any that aren’t stressful.

Cake baking is not happening today. It’s too warm in here for me to run the oven for an hour.

I’ve started a list of things I want to do while Scott’s at home tomorrow. Having someone to lift boxes and drive the car during the day on a weekday is a big thing. Ideally, we’ll take books to the school and books to the downtown library for the Friends of the Library and go to the post office to ship two packages (one is ready; one still needs padding and addressing).

Finally, I want to go to the bus company’s office on S. Industrial to buy some half price bus tokens. We’ve got about twenty left at this point which would get me and Cordelia through a year pretty easily if all we use them for is trips to the dentist and the orthopedist. I don’t pay anything to ride the bus, so she’s the one who would use the tokens. I’m just hoping that she’ll start riding the bus for other things. The hitch is that the bus company only sells the half price tokens in multiples of 100, so getting them is expensive, and, well, I’m not sure we’ll use 100 before she graduates high school and has to pay full price. I suppose it would depend on where she ends up going for high school. With certain schools, we’d use a lot more than 100 tokens. (Sixteen years ago, when I was still working, a bus pass was only better than tokens if one was riding more than ten times a week. At ten times a week, a bus pass cost the same per ride as the tokens. I have no idea if that’s still true.)


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